I love to read and have been doing it since I was two according to my parents. Each month I like to share what I’m reading with my followers. My reading list for September includes three books: Too Much is Never Enough by Mary L. Trump, The Ready to Heal – Breaking Free of Addictive Relationships 3rd Edition by Kelly McDaniel, and The Missing Piece by Shel Silverstein. I’m reading a serious one, a relationship one, and yes, one for kids.
If you know me, you know I’m not the biggest fan of the current administration. I had hopes that maybe, just maybe, with the slimmest of chances, if I squinted, held my breath, and cocked my head to the side… Donald Trump would buck the system and make it better. The night he was elected, I sat at my friend’s staring at the television in high confusion. I was convinced my brain was playing tricks on me up until the next morning when the results turned out to be real. If I ever regret not voting… it was that night. I’m for sure not missing it this year. Lesson learned. I will happily be taking my butt to the polling station.
There’s so much I could say about the guy, but I will leave it at my very naive pie in the sky hope back in 2016. I gotta give him something like credit? He was different. Different has the possibility to be good. Change doesn’t happen by doing things how we always do them. I understand that concept and wholeheartedly agree with it. I can see where some of his supporters were coming from in some respects, but there were a lot of in your face problems and dog whistles that I could not believe people were excited about while he campaigned. My attempts at positivity were quickly derailed upon Election Day, the “alternate facts”, and the crowd-size debate started.
So anyway, I’m both curious and afraid of what I will learn and discover in Too Much is Never Enough. I waited a while to buy this one, after seeing how the public reacted to it. I am one of those folks that has to read, do, or see something on her own when forming opinions, so I decided to check it out. The first book that I ever bought about Mr. Trump was Fire and Fury by Michael Wolff a few years back. I’m interested in seeing what happens in this one.
Relationship-wise the book that I’m reading this month is Ready to Heal: Breaking Free of Addictive Relationships 3rd Edition. This book is for those who are addicted to love. Yeah, it’s possible. Remember that song that’s like, “You might as well face it your addicted love”? That’s a real thing.
Falling in love feels good. Incredibly good. You feel like you’re walking on clouds, there are all those butterflies in your stomach, and everything is amazing. Who wouldn’t want to feel like that always? Looking at my dating and relationship track record, it’s evident that I’ve chased love for years. The idea that it might be an addiction was surprising! I’ve never really struggled with addiction… I’m sure I drink more than I should, but I’m always able to stop when I decide to give my body a break. Summer of 2019 was spent completely sober.
I’m interested to look at love from a more clinical perspective. I’ve always chased the fairy tale, I’ve got stars in my eyes, and each man in my life has been put on a pedestal. Maybe love is not that. I wanted the TV/ movie version that would make a good story at a wedding. Love needs to be something different for me. I need to learn more about healthy relationships, and I’m taking the time to do it. It feels pretty good to do what’s good for myself instead of everyone else. I’m gonna keep doing it.
The back of the book says, “Break free from the chain of addictive relationships that sabotage happiness and self-respect.”
That’s what all my relationships have done over time, so I’m probably going to read this one first to be honest. It’s going to make a big difference in my love life. I’m planning on spending another year single, because although I’ve been single for almost a year now, I spend nine months of that year completely heartbroken, crying just about every day and so confused and overwhelmed. Now that I understand myself, I want better. I want to spend a whole year where I actually feel good about myself and want to learn more. And after that year, I may decide on another. It depends where I’m at in my journey, and my new business. I want something other than being in a relationship as the defining thing about me.
Yeah, I forgot to mention! My blog is on its way to becoming a small business. It’s so nice to work for myself! I never thought about blogging being a source of income, but that’s life! I’ve tried blogging several times in my twenties, but this is the only time I’ve actually made any progress.
The final book is a simple book. I got it when I left my residential treatment center in March. It’s “The Missing Piece” by Shel Silverstein. Somehow, I never read that one when I was a kiddo. My favorite Shel Silverstein book was “Where the Sidewalk Ends”.
This one’s going to be a short read, but still a good one. The main reason for throwing a kids’ book in there is to connect with my inner child more. I try to
do something for my inner child each month. I find that it’s super important for me to keep in touch with my inner child. I feel like I like I let my inner child down during my depressive episodes so I try to do something I think my inner child would love.
I’m looking forward to my September books! What are you reading this month?