Dear Negative Sense of Self,
I keep coming back to you. Year after year, time after time. When I’ve let you go, just as quickly, I’ve come running back.
You are my normal. You are reliable, infallible, and indefatigable. You are me, and I am you. I need you. I can’t understand the world without you.
And yet, someone has changed. It’s me. I have changed.
Your truth has become lies in my ears.
Your embrace has become rejected by my heart.
Your sincerity has become hollow in my life.
I’m leaving you behind, just as you promised that others would leave me. You told me that I was nothing without them. You told me that I was worthless without them. You told me that I could not live without them.
If I could not do all of these things, why am I still here? I’m living, breathing, full of worthiness and happiness? Why am I planning my future, enjoying my present, and not worried about my past? Why am I accepting all that I am and all that I will become?
Because I’m evolving. I’m growing. I’m transforming.
I’m stronger than you. I never needed you. You are nothing.
You are worthless. You are wrong.
I am everything that I will ever need.