I truly expected to be fine afterward. I thought that a week of alone time, plus meeting some really wonderful people would change my outlook forever. Don't get me wrong, going on a trip and making new friends made a huge difference. Prior to going, I'd forgotten what it was like for people to text and make plans with me. It was so nice to be appreciated and accepted by my new friends, and I'm happy that we keep in contact now. In meeting them, I got a good reminder that I was not a bad person. I think my soul searching trip did everything in terms of reading self-help books, dancing a ...
broken heart
I am taking a hiatus from blogging.
"The world tests those who are going to contribute the greatest gifts." A kind stranger on the internet said this to me when my whole world was imploding this past week. The words touched my heart and brought tears to my eyes. I am taking a hiatus from blogging, because well... I have been going through it this week. It's just been a rough few days. Actually I don’t want to sugarcoat it. It's been a rough couple of months. The most recent problem solved itself with the help of many kind strangers reaching out, and a therapist that was determined to help me reduce my stress level. Even ...
Music is helping me connect with my emotions again
Music is such a great way to process emotions, which is probably why I avoided it like the plague. I started listening to EDM a few years ago, because all the beeps, bops, and drops didn't make me think. I didn't have to connect to it and feel anything. There's few emotions in music without lyrics. It was an escape. I just moved my body, and that was that. Since I've been on this healing journey, I've started listening to something else. I've been acknowledging my feelings and thoughts. In doing so, I'm opening the door to forgiveness. Here's what I've been listening to for ...
I am Open and Ready for Affirmation 2
Last week's affirmation, "Something wonderful is about to happen," led me to some new and interesting places. Wonderful things happened! On Sunday I ended up at a cigar bar with a new friend. We ended up laughing so hard we went into silent giggle mode. It was fun! In therapy on Monday, I began connecting with my pain and trauma. Finally admitting that horrific things happened to me, instead of hiding behind a convincing fake smile was very difficult. I went to a Pranic Healing Session on Tuesday out of curiosity for a unique experience. My heart chakra was displaced according ...
