Today’s blog post is going to be a little different. Since a healing journey is ongoing, there is always something to new to work on and process. Today’s subject? Insecurities. We’re all plagued by them, and we’re usually insecure about something that is completely beyond our control. It could be our height, the way our voice sounds, or the way our head is shaped. We can also be insecure about our relationships (not just romantic, but platonic and familial, too), our job performance, and even where we are in life. In this blog post, I’m going to do something that scares me a little: ...
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ECT saved my life
In a previous post I mentioned having another suicide attempt while in treatment. Unfortunately, it's true. I wasn't responding to medications. Therapy was a joke at the second place I was sent. Somehow the pain multiplied in that environment, and I hit rock bottom. I sank further into depression and reached a pit I had fallen into many times before. I kept thinking, "I'm broken, and I have nothing to live for anymore." I stopped eating and slept all the time. There were periods of time where I sat and stared at nothing, because I was dissociated. I walked slowly, my hair was a mess, ...
Grow Where You Are Planted
It’s hard to describe the pain of a broken engagement. It’s harder than losing a boyfriend or girlfriend. When you get engaged to someone, you have thought critically and at length about sharing your life with another person. You become less worried about the future because you understand that your partner will be there. Questions about life start having answers. You understand that your relationship will not always be roses, but your partner is worth the thorns. Anxieties quiet, and fears dissipate. Everything about life does not make sense still, but your partner gives you clarity. I was ...
