As soon as Halloween jack-o-lanterns and Freddy Kreuger costumes reappear and fade away, retail stores whip out giant inflatable Santas, orange, brown, and red turkey decorations, and cornucopias. Kids are making those hand-drawn turkeys in school and wearing construction paper pilgrim hats. The leaves are gone, and snow might be on the ground (except in most of the South). For most, these sights bring a small rush of, “Yes! It’s the holidays!!!” For others, myself and millions of retail workers included, it’s a feeling of dread. “Crap, it’s the holidays.” The time that’s supposed to be ...
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Asking for Help
Before deciding to go ask for help, I got overwhelmed. I hit a point where I knew no matter how much work I did on my own, I was flailing at best. I was trying everything I could, and many of those things were not working out. It was very discouraging because the more positive I tried to be, the worse things got. I hit my breaking point near Christmas time. Going to a VA hospital was out of the question, because I actually wanted to get better instead of being managed instead of treated. I wanted to be more than stable and feel alive, instead of feeling so overwhelmed that I wanted to ...
Understanding and ending my toxic cycle
I had a breakthrough in therapy this week! I reached a point of understanding what my toxic cycle is! Now that I have the information, I am ending my toxic cycle this year. When I was in high school, the only thing that motivated me was getting away from my parents. It was literally the only thing that got me out of bed in the morning. It motivated me to become Student Council President of my high school, chase high grades, and get involved in after school activities and sports. Any second I could spend away from home was a second of relief. My only goal was to get the hell away ...
December Reading List
Happy Holidays! What I'm Reading in December 2019: • Where The Crawdads Ding by Delia Owens • All The Missing Girls by Megan Miranda • The Water Dancer by Ta-Nehisi Coates • The Woman in Cabin 10 by Ruth Ware ...
