Anyone else out there suffer from anxiety? Duh, everyone has felt anxious in some way, shape, or form. Remember trying to give a book report in front of the class when you were in school? Oh yeah. That might’ve made you anxious. Remember the first time you stole something? Don’t front, everybody goes through a stage where they take something that’s not theirs. The most common signs of anxiety are shaking hands, heart palpitations, and sweating. Some people are energized by this feeling. I count them among the lucky, and I won’t lie, I envy them a little. However, others are completely ...
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A New Month of Gratitude
It’s September, look at that! Remember when March took two months to pass? The rest of the year sprinted by to make up for it, I guess. It’s only a few months until a new year starts. I think we’re all ready and waiting for that. My affirmation from last Sunday, I accept and release everything in my life that is beyond my power to change, ran through my mind many times. I released a Breakup Journal and went to a wedding. I honestly don’t think I would have been capable of either thing had I not let go of the almost unending waves of pain and sadness that followed my ended engagement. It ...
ECT saved my life
In a previous post I mentioned having another suicide attempt while in treatment. Unfortunately, it's true. I wasn't responding to medications. Therapy was a joke at the second place I was sent. Somehow the pain multiplied in that environment, and I hit rock bottom. I sank further into depression and reached a pit I had fallen into many times before. I kept thinking, "I'm broken, and I have nothing to live for anymore." I stopped eating and slept all the time. There were periods of time where I sat and stared at nothing, because I was dissociated. I walked slowly, my hair was a mess, ...
