As I look back at 2020 and try to apply the practice of gratitude for it… I’m not struggling much. Somehow, 2020 was the worst and best year of my life. It’s been wild from start to finish. Why I'm grateful for 2020 This time last year, I was having one of the worst depressive episodes I have ever had. Then I was having them again six months later in the summer. I was so exhausted, emotionally, physically, and mentally. My life had no value to me or the person that I loved with all my heart. I couldn’t let go, and I couldn’t move forward. It felt like being trapped in hell. Then there was ...
fall in love with yourself
Books for the Month of September
I love to read and have been doing it since I was two according to my parents. Each month I like to share what I’m reading with my followers. My reading list for September includes three books: Too Much is Never Enough by Mary L. Trump, The Ready to Heal – Breaking Free of Addictive Relationships 3rd Edition by Kelly McDaniel, and The Missing Piece by Shel Silverstein. I’m reading a serious one, a relationship one, and yes, one for kids. If you know me, you know I’m not the biggest fan of the current administration. I had hopes that maybe, just maybe, with the slimmest of chances, if I ...
From Self-Hatred to Self-Acceptance
"I hate myself," was something that I used to say or think to myself constantly. It could be that I dropped a glass and it shattered everywhere, or that I had a failed at another thing that was extremely important to me. The smallest things were huge, and I told myself that I could not handle them. My default setting was self-loathing, even when I was relatively happy. I hated myself so much that I thought self-love was an annoying social media trend not how healthy people truly treated themselves.. My genuine reaction to hearing about self-love on the internet was shrugging, ...
Letter to my inner child
Dear Inner Child, I am sorry that I wouldn't acknowledge you before this healing journey began. I didn't want you to see me, because I was ashamed and scared. I remember you as a curious and fearless little girl. You loved hugs and wanted to be a doctor or a lawyer. Let me be the first to remind you every day: You are so precious and a beautiful little girl. You are worthy of being cherished, loved, and celebrated. You are amazing. Chase your goals. Laugh freely. Live out loud. Some people won't appreciate you while they have you. Let them go. Keep living, learning, and doing your ...