It’s September, look at that! Remember when March took two months to pass? The rest of the year sprinted by to make up for it, I guess. It’s only a few months until a new year starts. I think we’re all ready and waiting for that. My affirmation from last Sunday, I accept and release everything in my life that is beyond my power to change, ran through my mind many times. I released a Breakup Journal and went to a wedding. I honestly don’t think I would have been capable of either thing had I not let go of the almost unending waves of pain and sadness that followed my ended engagement. It ...
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Asking for Help
Before deciding to go ask for help, I got overwhelmed. I hit a point where I knew no matter how much work I did on my own, I was flailing at best. I was trying everything I could, and many of those things were not working out. It was very discouraging because the more positive I tried to be, the worse things got. I hit my breaking point near Christmas time. Going to a VA hospital was out of the question, because I actually wanted to get better instead of being managed instead of treated. I wanted to be more than stable and feel alive, instead of feeling so overwhelmed that I wanted to ...
This Summer
I have to talk about this summer. Have to. I spent the majority of the summer by myself. It was partly by choice, and partly because my fiancé has been off-island for work. My roommate and I have been thick as thieves, but now he’s gone, too! My goofball is getting back very soon, and he’s coming home to a different woman because of all the time I spent with myself. I should be a hand model! I gotta say, this was the best summer ever. I feel like I finally got my shit together. I did some soul searching. I got to know myself. I did a lot of reading, yoga, exercising. I feel great. I ...
