I know that most people settle in and watch scary and Halloween themed movies each October. I didn't this year, because I'm focusing on growth and learning. My spooky reading list has come to an end. I really enjoyed every book I read in October. If you forgot, they were It’s Not All Downhill From Here by Terri McMillan, Ghost Boy by Martin Pistorius, and Welcome to Your Crisis by Laura Day. I chose these instead of my regulars: The Shining, Halloweentown, and Hocus Pocus. I gotta say, I really enjoyed It’s Not All Downhill From Here. I love pretty much anything Terri McMillan writes. This ...
I said goodbye to my insecurities today, and I feel great!
This is the follow up to my last post, My Deepest Insecurities: Iris, Warts and All. I’m going to go through each insecurity and disproving it. There’s no reason for me to believe bad things about myself, especially since I’ve made leaps and strides in my healing journey and loving myself! The problem with comparison and insecurities The thing about insecurities is that we think they are facts, when all reality, they are just thoughts. Let’s bring up some common insecurities: “I’m ugly because I don’t look like girls in magazines.”“I’m too old to be considered attractive anymore.”“I’m ...
I am Open and Ready for Affirmation 2
Last week's affirmation, "Something wonderful is about to happen," led me to some new and interesting places. Wonderful things happened! On Sunday I ended up at a cigar bar with a new friend. We ended up laughing so hard we went into silent giggle mode. It was fun! In therapy on Monday, I began connecting with my pain and trauma. Finally admitting that horrific things happened to me, instead of hiding behind a convincing fake smile was very difficult. I went to a Pranic Healing Session on Tuesday out of curiosity for a unique experience. My heart chakra was displaced according ...
Big Chop
Last May, I had to cut off all of my hair. I had heat damage. The entire front of my head was frazzled, seared, fried... whatever you want to call it. It was bad. I had gotten a sew-in in Florida before moving to Guam. I argued with the hairstylist for a while, because I didn't want leave out. I told her Guam was way more humid than Florida and I didn't want to flat iron my hair every day. My hair shrinks up if there's a whisper of water 200 miles away. The stylist talked me out of what I already knew, and did the leave out. Fast forward to removing the weave a month or so later... you ...
Challenge 3
I would like to work out more, but I hate going to gyms. Like, loathe it entirely. I worry about germs. I worry about doing exercises wrong. I get self-conscious. Most of all, I feel like craaaaaap after a workout. The whole endorphin thing is a myth to me. It's because I'm so worked up the whole time I'm in the gym. For some people, exercise is a haven. For me, it's pure torture. More often than not I either feel like I'm gonna throw after working out or actually throw up. Yeah, it's real fun. Last month I decided, what the hell, new year new me... in July. Yep! No time is better ...
