"I hate myself," was something that I used to say or think to myself constantly. It could be that I dropped a glass and it shattered everywhere, or that I had a failed at another thing that was extremely important to me. The smallest things were huge, and I told myself that I could not handle them. My default setting was self-loathing, even when I was relatively happy. I hated myself so much that I thought self-love was an annoying social media trend not how healthy people truly treated themselves.. My genuine reaction to hearing about self-love on the internet was shrugging, ...
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Letter to my inner child
Dear Inner Child, I am sorry that I wouldn't acknowledge you before this healing journey began. I didn't want you to see me, because I was ashamed and scared. I remember you as a curious and fearless little girl. You loved hugs and wanted to be a doctor or a lawyer. Let me be the first to remind you every day: You are so precious and a beautiful little girl. You are worthy of being cherished, loved, and celebrated. You are amazing. Chase your goals. Laugh freely. Live out loud. Some people won't appreciate you while they have you. Let them go. Keep living, learning, and doing your ...
Running My Way To Emotional Healing
Days before I left Guam and began this emotional healing journey, I had an emergency session with my psychiatrist. It was to renew meds, but she also knew that my entire world had been rocked. She had just given me the approval to get stationed overseas with my fiancé a week before, because I'd worked hard all summer, and my mental health was stable. Everything was fine. Then, without warning, I was suddenly single and leaving my home. She sat down with me for about an hour, listening, and helping me process the shock and pain. I remember feeling so numb and overwhelmed. At first, I ...
