It’s that time again. Sunday! Let’s get started making next week the best week ever. I’m thinking of fireworks, rainbows, and a parade of happy dogs! Maybe my expectations are set a bit high, but the heart wants what it wants.
My favorite part of this week… had to be having a dance party all by myself in my bedroom on Friday night. Being unable to go out dancing has finally gotten on my nerves. Dancing is not something I do well, but dammit if it isn’t entertaining for me and everyone around me. It was nice to just wiggle everything out. I’ve been working really hard on some upcoming things for this blog and social media. It’s been a lot of work keeping up with so many different projects, and sometimes you just have to dance out the stress and laugh.
Something I did well this week… was be a good friend to a buddy of mine that was going to his final court date for a divorce. He just needed someone to reassure him that he’d done his best and everything would be fine. And it was! Although I’m bummed that his relationship didn’t work out, I’m happy that I could offer some laughs and listen. Most of the time that’s all anyone needs when they’re feeling nervous.
Someone I was thankful for this week… the lady that did my facial. I am a nervous skin picker. It’s an unconscious thing and usually it’s far too late once I realize what I’m doing. I’ll either absentmindedly pick at a spot on my skin or scratch an area repeatedly until it bleeds. It’s not a good habit, but I’ve done it since I was a teenager. She didn’t chastise me when she saw my skin. I told her that I was anxious when I did it, and I’d do my best to keep my hands away from my face in the future. She laughed and said, “How about next time, you color or bake something?” I followed her advice and ended up baking some brownies with Oreos in them. So delicious. See? Sometimes good things come out of anxiety.
My affirmation from last week “I am safe now” proved to be very helpful. I am very skittish when it comes to thunderstorms, which happen to be a daily thing in Orlando during this time of year. Wow, a person with PTSD being scared of loud unexpected noises… some groundbreaking material right there. All jokes aside, I did much better than I would have in the past. There have been occasions when I got drunk to deal with storms. Instead of drunkenly cowering this week, I made myself safe. I found a good book, my thunder buddy Mr. Buddy, my giant teddy, and some earplugs. Thunder ceases to be scary when you can’t hear it as well, go figure.
Another way this affirmation made a difference was while I was watching “Legend of Korra”. [insert fangirl, “Squeee!” here] Korra goes through a traumatic experience but learns to overcome it. Afterward, she suffers from PTSD. Her main hang-up was her fear and anxiety of what could’ve happened to her and subsequent need for safety at all times afterward. It reminded me of various situations I have been in during my twenties. Those events will always be a part of me, but I am indeed safe now. The danger is gone, and any panic attacks can and will be quelled by that tiny reassurance.
Your Weekly Affirmation
The affirmation for this week is “It’s okay not to be okay”. I’ve been seeing that one everywhere since the start of the pandemic, and it makes sense. There are so many different opinions and ways of coping with all that’s going on in the world now. 2020 has definitely had some interesting plot twists, and I don’t think the writers are quite done messing with our heads.
It’s okay to be kind of confused, scared, angry or a combination of all three. At times, I know I am. There seems to be so little that’s actually under our control right now. From masks to ballots to human rights, it kind of feels like there’s this build up brewing to some kind of overwhelming climax. It doesn’t matter which side of the aisle you’re on, I’m betting you’re under some serious stress in our current climate.
What can we do to stay sane? One thing that keeps me from going over the edge is the knowledge that we’re all living our lives for the first time. This is the first time any of us are experiencing each day as it unfolds. It gives me the ability to shrug off someone cutting me off while driving or seeing someone saying something I don’t agree with online. They are living a completely different life than me, with a whole other perspective that I can’t even comprehend. I don’t know what battle someone else is fighting, just like they don’t know what’s going on with me. That kind of understanding, as well as a lot of deep breaths and thinking before I speak, keeps me pretty cool. There’s that old Kermit the Frog meme where he’s sipping tea and the caption is, “But that’s none of my business.” That’s my mantra.
Your Journal Prompts for Anxiety
If life has a big ball of anxiety tumbling around in your brain, I’ve added related journal prompts to this post. Having a journal for all the racing thoughts is such a great source of peace. At least the thoughts are going somewhere instead of zipping in and out and pinging back and forth repeatedly in your skull. Journaling is a great practice in mindfulness as well.
Journal Prompt: What are my top five stressors right now?
Journal Prompt: What can I let go (literally or figuratively) of to relieve some stress at the moment?
Journal Prompt: What have I gotten out of being anxious in the past?
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